Was this the end?

She has betrayed me......The icing on the cake...that sums it all up
How am I expected to trust when I feel this way?
Stupid stupid life...
everywhere I turn...I run into their lies...

So LonG

Why dose what i do threaten you??
Maybe its not me...
Maybe its you....

Maybe your scared
that i might stray
Maybe you think another man will take me away

But why.....If im happy...
why dose what i do threaten you?

FoRever Takes a LonG timE...

We are two worn out souls...
No longer ment to breath..
our toxicness is killing me,,,,
i just need to breath...
so set me free..your blackend soul....
no longer chain me down,,
freedom is where i ment to be....

Pretty little thing ( a poem by me...)

Pretty little thing
With scars on her writs
She cries for her daddy
But he's been replaced
Shinny knife blood flowing down
Pretty little girl
She hit the ground
Mom comes to work,
See's the mess
Pretty little girl,
Ruined her Sunday dress.
Mom grabs the mop,
Says what a shame
Pretty little girl,
She has only herself to blame.
Weeks turn to months..
months into years
Pretty little thing released all her fears
Mom's in jail
Daddy's running free
Pretty little girl they should have left her be....

She was a sour girl the day that she left me...

Why do i feel so unsettled?
Why cant i sit still and enjoy life? instead im always wondering if theres something better...
Why cant i feel happyness?
Why do i keep pretending like this is what i want when really i dont know what the fu*k i want...

And i feel your grip...so tight around me

Something new....

Something challenging

Something addictive

I don't want to let you go...

I may end up hurting you though...

I like your dangerous side

It turns me on

It drives me crazy...

I love your body..

Maybe ill use it for a bit

I don't see us staying together forever.

You bring out a side in me..

A side i haven't felt in years

I love it..I'm addicted to this feeling..

i miss this feeling...but with this feeling comes

flashbacks..

I miss the rush...

i have always missed the rush..

touch me now grab me quick

I'm falling.. I'm slipping

i love it

gotta keep my chin up

otherwise ill dive in...deep

I just dont know anymore...

to look at me you will see a happy girl with a smile on my face.. to know me you will see a broken hearted soul screaming to be free'd i just dont know anymore.. is it worth it????